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| I'm exhausted, but my mind is reeling. I'm no longer spazzing out about future love interests..but the threat of loneliness is getting to me. I'm trying to feel better, so that I can at least recover pieces of my sanity, but I can't. I'm just two steps away from calling my ex...
and that would be a bad idea. - Mood:tired
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| Love is a mystery. Even after breaking up with my boyfriend of two years, my heart is ready to go for another one. I can't explain the confusion and hesitation I feel now. We both like each other...in fact, we have fallen for each other. But here's the kicker...we've only heard each others voices. (He's asian and omg, he sounds cute!) I mean there is a lot for me to consider. I want to be attached to him...and I'm even thinking about trying to move to New York so I can be with him.
But there's just a few little problems: he's asian and I'm black. Yes, I've thought about how beautiful our babies would be. But I don't know a word of conversational Chinese. (Japanese, yes; Chinese, no) And I don't know how our families would react. Two, it would be a long distance relationship. And what if I meet him and he's fat or something? Well...fatness wouldn't be a issue really o.O
Seeing as how asians...can't really get fat?
Omg, advice please...I don't know what to do. My loneliness/heartsickness is getting to me. - Mood:thoughtful
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| Hello, hello, it's me, Nessa.
Wow...that name sounds unfamiliar. I'm usually known by T, or Tsuki these days. Anyways, how is everyone? Good, I hope. I have take a very long absence due to DRAMA and more drama. My brain is a bit fucked up at the moment, so forgive me if I don't make sense.
To dispel the rumors, NO I AM NOT pregnant. I was and I'm not, so let's get that straight. I'd prefer if I didn't get responses like 'WTF' or 'Why in the hell were you pregnant' because I will come and hunt you the fuck down and kill you. *calms down* That in itself isn't any of your business unless you are close to me...and I tell you. It is very painful to discuss and then be judged over it.
I've started playing Silk Road Online and Guild Wars now. So if you play any of these two or if you would just like to start playing, hit me up. I'll take you under my wing. I'm a co-guild master in SRO. Also, I talk on vent and T/S (Teamspeak 2) if you want to just holler at me. And for those who are simply interested in seeing my misadventures in SRO, I have pictures!
That's all for now. Thank Mint for this update XD - Mood:groggy
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| I was just told today that I didn't qualify for the job that I applied for. In more specific terms, I failed the assessment test. I didn't say it, but I was like 'Dude! How in the fuck do you fail an assessment test?' Needless to say, I got very bummed out from it. I still kinda am. More later. - Mood:frustrated
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| I'm in a crappy mood right now. I guess it is one of my unexplainable moods right now, so I'm not bothering to try and figure it out. - Mood:crappy
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| Well, today has been very good for me since I started feeling better again. And yet, I still wonder what my boyfriend is up to as far as Valentine's Day. Hm...well I'm not going to dwell on that anymore.
Goodnight...for now. - Mood:content
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| Hey bitches, the Steelers won. That means that the Panthers have been avenged. HAHA MOTHERFUCKERS! - Mood:amused
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| This is one of those days where I can actually feel myself starting to decay mentally all over again. It's been months literally since I've taken my medicine at all. I don't want to take it either. I'm trying to get off of Prozac. It makes the time of the month extra special hell. Feh..I don't really want to go into further discussion right now. - Mood:distressed
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